Santana Pilar Andrews
Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014






The Inner Light Archive


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Hello everyone!

I know you have been waiting to hear from me and I am sorry I took so long just wanted to rest and make sure I let this all settle in. I am your newly crowned Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014!!! I cannot explain the flood of emotions that has been rushing through my body since I started the prep for this, until the moment my name was announced on stage as the winner. I already feel a shift in my life beginning to happen but I believe the change is one that is going to mold me further into the man I want to be. I know that may sound weird since I just won a female illusion competition but people forget how much of a man you have to be the get out there in front of an audience as a gender you were not born as and perform that, takes a truly confident person!

I want to make sure everyone that has reached out to me with their congratulations know how truly appreciative I am and I plan on messaging each of you personally with my gratitude. Lets start off with a congrats to David Green the owner and heart of MGLA! He is so wonderful and made everything such a smooth process. I am looking forward to being a part of TEAM GREEN and representing Louisiana at MGA! Mr. David we have a big year ahead of us and I am glad I get to be a part of this journey with you. Josh Richard you are such an amazing Director I felt taken care of and seen the love you have for this system. You helped run such a wonderful pageant thank you so much for making my first year less tense than it could have been. To Splash Night Club and Staff THANK YOU for hosting and making everyone comfortable and made all contestants feel at home!

Now it could be so easy to tell you all how hard I worked and that this win means so much to me but this was not a solo act or win I had so many people in my life help aid me to the point I am at right now. The person that deserves so much credit and praise than anyone else is Kenli Andrews. My sister, best friend, coach, dresser, teammate, and brother you have been a part of this since day one pushing me believing in me and putting your own goals aside to make sure my dreams come true. I just have to say I promise you that your sacrifices will NOT go in vain I will make you so proud because without you I would not have even came close to the life changing experience I am about to embark on and I know I have you their every step of the way. When the time comes for me to aid you in your dreams just know I will give you my all just as much as you have given me. I love you with every inch of my tiny little body.

Brittney G all those late nights at Dance Factory staying until 3am paid off thank you for loving me through this whole experience. We both know when Andre left we took it hard but we found comfort in having each other. Though I wish I could have my best friend back home every day. I am glad we were given the chance to really connect and win MGLA in the process. I love you BG! To my puppets….(I am not being rude I am talking about my Talent ;)) Lakari, Ben, and Kile you all went over the call of duty to make sure that Talent was the best Talent at MGLA! You all double as puppets, pity crew, and the best friends anyone can ever ask for. WE won Talent together and I could not imagine sharing the win with any other group of people. We are going to have a blast as MGA in October so look out cause here comes Louisiana!!!

The next group of individuals I would like to recognize is what I would like to call my America system Greek chorus. First Chad Terrio you have given me so much faith in myself that I did not even know existed you were the first person to tell me that I could do it and I did it I won! Being able to be part of a sisterhood with you means the world to me and I will make sure to remember everything you told me as I go on to MGA! Next Devin Carrier and Blake V you two have been so honest and helpful through this whole experience. I am so happy to call you my friends and I personally look up to you two in what I want when I find my life partner. Devin never give up on your dream of being MGLA because I know it will happen for you one day. To Jacob Romero or should I say “god send” thank you so much for everything you did for me this week you worked so hard and I will love you forever for doing what you did for me. I wanted all your hard work to not go in vain and I am glad that it did not. Finally member of my Greek chorus is Chris Terrio thank you thank you thank!!! You planted the seed for my main talent to happen and it blossomed at MGLA so glad I brought it to life for you and I can only wish that it will continue to grow from here. You all were in my head every step of the way. Thank with all my heart!

I am thoroughly pleased that the city of Lafayette took care of me from Daryln and The Dace Factory allowing me the practice space to my home bar Fame Nightlight for supporting me the whole way though so glad I can make yall proud and I hope to continue this going forward. To my Lafayette promoter Brody Marks we went through our first year in the system together and It was a blast you are a sweet person I hope you continue to do better with in the America system. Being young is not always about waiting in line it’s about learning a striving for your dreams. MGLA 2014 pageant had the most fabulous individuals involved from; contestants, judges, MGLA 2013 Mercedez Loreal, all the formers of MGLA, and MGA Jessica Jade. To my 12 sisters I made at the pageant this year each and everyone one of you is a star. NEVER let anyone tell you otherwise. I am here for all 12 of you and I better see every single one of you back next year because honey it was a fight to the end. We set a new form of love in sisterhood this year and it is something I want to see continued next year and for all the years to come at MGLA. It’s up to us to continue the care we had in 2014 and I have faith that WE can. Please stay in touch and I am here for anything yall need. Cannot wait to travel and see you all soon!!! To the 5 judges chosen all of you were so wonderful and kind and really gave amazing advice I plan on taking your words and putting them into action for MGA 2014. Miss Mercedez you are so wise and beautiful you worked so hard to be MGLA 2013 and you journey is so inspiring. We are now sisters and I look forward to getting to know you better. You are a class act and I admire you deeply thank you for loving all the contestants and not just the qualifiers of MGLA but everyone that competed this year. To all the promoter THANK YOU ALL, I wish a crown could be place on each of your heads because all of you are royalty in my eyes PLEASE keep doing what you all do and I will be seeing each of you soon!

To my new sisters of MGLA going all the way back to 1991 I am so happy to be part of this family. I already feel the love from you all and am pumped to be part of the 25th anniversary of MGLA. I will do my best to make the MGLA 2015 is one that no one will forget. I may be only 22 years of age but know that I do appreciate the path paved by you ladies and I hope I can make you all proud to call me sister.

Lastly Miss Gay America 2013 Jessica Jade you are truly an amazing human being I believe all the contestants this year can agree you were so caring and attentive to us. So glad I got the have this experience with you see you at MGA and have a wonderful rest of your reign. Today it hit me that I really did it, that I won MGLA 2014! I worked extremely hard to go in my first year and make a statement low and behold I ended up winning the whole thing! I know that this journey is just the beginning of a life changing experience for me. I want everyone to learn something from this year especially all contestants entering next year please believe in your inner light cause that is what will make you the entertainer you want to be. No one else can make that light come through but you. So get out there and shine so bright you make the unthinkable happen. Arilyn Roberts I hope you are ready for MGA sis cause I know Louisiana has two fine representatives between us two!!

With Love,

Your Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

Santana Pilar Andrews

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August 2014

The Inner Light

Hello everyone! It has been close to a month since I was crowned your Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014. I have experience so many emotions since August 1st on finals night. I still find myself not believing that it actually happen that I set my heart on something and went for it full force achieving a dream I did not even know I could obtain. You all might find it interesting to know that I was not even planning on competing this year at all. I know crazy right! Not because I did not want to, but because I did not see myself on that level in my craft just yet. Also I am still in school pursuing my degree which has always been my dream to graduate college.

I was approached by several of my close friends and promoters of the system asking me to compete and declined everyone. It just was not my time I kept telling them that I was just not ready. I told myself that if I ever did go for MGLA I would go in and prove to everyone that I am a force to be reckoned with and I personal did not see myself on level of being able to do that. I finished up my semester this past spring and was asked again to compete for Lafayette America. I sat down with my close friend and had a heart to heart. After that conversation hearing all the positive thoughts and belief he had in me, I said then let’s do it!! After a lot of hard work, love and tears. I captured the title and achieved my goal that I said I wanted to covey that I am a force to be reckoned with. I just did not know that it meant I was going to win the whole thing.

Now I am looking forward to a life changing experience and getting to know a bunch of crazy queens that will be my sisters for a life time. I have goals for this year as your reigning MGLA and plan to see them through. I want this system to improve and grow so much more, I have faith that it can with love and hard work. I hope that winning this year can prove to all future contestants of MGLA that it is never a specific entertainer’s year. That if you come in with passion and a package YOU are proud of that you will make it YOUR year. My best advice for the contestants next year is allow your talent to speak for itself without the aid of your mouth. That is my version of a true symbol of excellence.

BUT first things first I will like to assure you all that you have two amazing and talented representatives going to Miss Gay America this year for the state of Louisiana. Arylin Roberts and I are going to make you all proud and I am quite confident in that belief. In saying this we do need all your help. We will be having several benefit shows around the state to aid in our travels to Nashville Tennessee October 8-12! Please add us on Facebook and come out to these events because we cannot do it without you guys. I will be writing a monthly letter during my reign to keep yall updated on my endeavors. I decided to name it “The Inner Light” from my facebook statement to remind everyone to continue to shine and I will do the same. I am looking forward to traveling our great state and meeting you all! So get ready because it all start now!

Feel free to contact me through email dylanpontiff@yahoo.com and/or cell phone 337-412-9641

Until next time!

Santana Pilar Andrews

Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

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September 2014

The Inner Light

Hello all, wow what a crazy busy month September has been. I have gotten to experience something I have always wanted with in doing to art of female impersonation which was to travel and perform in other venues. This month I got to do a whole lot of that and might I say it was truly wonderful. A special thanks to the places that gave myself a benefit show Fame and Corner Bar Monroe. Also thanks to the bars that allowed me to join their cast and embraced me as their own OZ and Splash Night Club. I have gotten to meet so many great people and perform the art form I have come to love all over our great state. One thing about getting the privilege of getting to perform in different venues around our state is that it’s special to see how beautiful the LGBTQIA community is here. You can feel it through every single hug the love and pride throughout everyone I have gotten to meet. Our state is going through some channeling times with our community especially, we have to love each other. I mean really respect and love each other before we expect our heterosexual counter parts to do so.

Becoming MGLA is not something that happens right at crowning. I like to think of it that at crowing you are considered worthy of the title but, it’s what happens after and along the way of your reign that makes you a true Miss Gay Louisiana America. Only the man holding the title can decide if he will embrace the change or reject it all together. It is so much more than a crown it is an attitude, a presences, and a legacy. Becoming something bigger than you are can be scary and I will not lie it’s terrifying but that does not mean it’s impossible. My mom told me that sometimes it is the things that scare us the most are the things worth going through. Little did she know that it would apply to her son being a female impersonator. So I am here to tell all future MGLAs after me it is scary but it’s okay cause it is yours and only you can direct the path you chose to go on.

Miss Gay America is practically a week away and I feel more than ready. Just crossing my Ts and dotting my Is. This time around the feeling is way different than what it felt like going into MGLA. Then I was only representing Lafayette and myself but now the pool of people I am representing is so great. Sometimes thinking about it is overwhelming and so much to take in too. I want to be just as wonderful and amazing as you all see my as. Making my state and community proud is my number one goal at MGA and of course winning is the close second. I want to be Miss Gay America and I know I have what it takes. Can I say I am fully ready? No, I would be lying if I did but I am up for the challenges it takes to be MGA. So there it is my leaving statement before I embark on this journey. Love you all and hope to shine so bright they can’t help but smile.

Feel free to contact me through email dylanpontiff@yahoo.com and/or cell phone 337-412-9641

Until next time!

Santana Pilar Andrews

Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

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October

The Inner Light

Hello all, wow I cannot believe October came and went so quickly. So much has happened and I am just overwhelmed with amount of care and love I have received over this past month. As most of you know I went to Miss Gay America the 8th-12th and let me tell you there is nothing like it in this world. I met so many amazing people and made some wonderful new friends. Most importantly I realized who in my life are my true friends and I cannot say enough how much I am blessed to have them in my life and on team Santana. I got to experience so many amazing things at MGA that stage being one of them I felt the electricity pulsing through me every time I hit that stage. It was so powerful and I pulled out some wonderful performances that I could not be more proud of.

I have a few highlights from MGA that I would love to share with y'all.

First getting to meet some of the forever MGA’s; Kirby Kolby, Sassy Sparkles, Charity Case, Coti Collins, Catia Lee Love, Jessica Jade and my MGLA sister Raquel Chevallier. Getting to have some quality time with my team, team green, and my MGLA sisters that were in attendance. Having Raquel come talk to me and tell me how proud she was of me and that I was doing an amazing job (warms my heart every time I replay that moment in my head). Having Mr. Smile the leader of the foundation “Stand for The Silent” Jessica Jade has spent her year raising money for giving us his presentation about his son and suicide prevention. Lastly and far from the least was getting to watch and hold the hand of my dear sister Dextaci as she waited her for her name to be called after top 5. All these moments lead up to an unforgettable experience for me and to have represented my state and home so well to place 24th out of 50 in my first year is the crowning glory of moments for me in October.

So now you may be wondering what is next for me and I can honestly tell you that MGA has not seen the last of me. I have the will and want to be Miss Gay America and I know that with hard work I will be Miss Gay America. Now the when of that is not in the know for me at this moment in time because I have another big dream to see to the end and that’s graduating college. I cannot thank everyone enough for the love and support I’ve been given. Now the best part I get to prepare for the next MGLA and help mentor the next group of men with the passion to be Louisiana’s Symbol of Excellence. I will say this to all interested that it is not just something that gets put on your head. Excellence is something that shines from within your heart. It is what the inner light truly is so I say shine on baby. If you guys can take anything from my reign and experience just always pave your own path even if people tell you it is not going to happen for you, the best thing is to prove yourself right. If you ever have any self-doubt fake it until you become it my loves.

Until next time ;)

Feel free to contact me through email dylanpontiff@yahoo.com and/or cell phone 337-412-9641

Santana Pilar Andrews

Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

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November

The Inner Light

Hey all, I feel like I just typed up Octobers letter and now I am here typing up Novembers. This month kicked off my prep for MGLA 2015. I am very excited for the 25th year of such an amazing legacy. This is the time I truly believe is when you see an MGLA shine this is where this goes from being an honor to a job. I like to consider the experience I am about to embark on as a Miss Gay America job prep. So as someone that dreams of being Miss Gay America one day I am looking quite forward to the whole journey ahead. What I am looking forward to the most is being able to aid the contestants for next year giving them the best advice I can and really showing them how much I can about their journey because in the end one of them will be joining me in the league of Louisiana’s finest Female Impersonators as a Miss Gay Louisiana America. What I find to be really wonderful about the experience of being a MGLA is that is different for everyone. It all boils down to where you are it in life when you achieve this honor. For me it have been such an amazing grown experience and is still proving itself to be. In these few months I have learned so much with in my art form and myself as a person. It’s almost like at MGLA my roots had sprouted and since I have emerged from the ground. From every prelim I attend and aid a group of contestants my branches will grow from there. I hope by the time I pass the title along I am a tree far from fully grown but my branches aimed high to the sky reaching for my dreams. As of now I am enjoying traveling our state so much every time I get invited to perform at different venue it warms my heart I never thought I would have gotten the opportunity to perform the places I have already and I hope there is more to come in my future. Just from being around so many different entertainers in our state it has aided my growth as a female impersonator tremendously. I truly love you all and thank you for everything you have given my so far I will spend a live time giving the love and respect you have all shown me back to yall! I promise you that. I hope you all have such an amazing holiday season please remember what is the most important during this time of year. Showing love and appreciation to the loved ones in your life. You can never say I love you too much. Love you all to the moon and back.

Until next time ;)

Feel free to contact me through email dylanpontiff@yahoo.com and/or cell phone 337-412-9641

Santana Pilar Andrews

Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

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December

The Inner Light

Happy Holidays everyone I hope y'all spent time with your loved ones and enjoyed some down time. I personally have been through so much during this holiday season. As some may know my grandmother in the beginning of December. This happens to be my first close relative I have lost in my life. She was a wonderful woman and such a loving person. She supported me in everything I did even Female Impersonation. A few months back before her health started down a downward spiral. She let me go through her jewelry box and told me to pick something to have so I could wear it when I “dressed up” that’s what she called Santana. So I picked a necklace with a heart charm on it the only thing my grandmother ever gave me of hers. This holiday season was an experience for my family going from Christmas to her birthday on the 27th.

I look at the necklace with so much more meaning now it’s like she knew one day I wouldn’t have her physically and gave me something to always remember her by. Within my experience as MGLA I want to learn so much and be able to give back to the MGLAs that come after me and here is a lesson my Maw taught me. Do everything with your heart in mind give love to as many as you can. That heart charm reminds me that though my brain maybe strong my heart will always be the strongest part of me. I took my grandmother passing to realize that. So please in a world where the heart is being silenced do not let yours fall on deaf ears. So that is one thing I will do my best as Miss Gay Louisiana America is allowing my heart to be a big part of this experience. I truly love all who take the time out to read my letters. I make sure to put deep thought and love into each of them. Now time to strap up my heels cause there is lots of work to be done before we know it prelims will begin and the search for the next MGLA will be upon us. To all interested please take it from me this title is a true life changing experience and it would be ashamed to miss out on the true growth that comes from this. I hope you all have a wonderful new year and I will see you all in 2015! Until next time!

Until next time ;)

Feel free to contact me through email dylanpontiff@yahoo.com and/or cell phone 337-412-9641

Santana Pilar Andrews

Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014

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Giveup Letter

It’s pretty unreal to think that I got to be Miss Gay Louisiana America and got to go to Miss Gay America as the representation of Female Impersonation within our state. This year has been filled with so much growth and love in my life. After the pageant last year I was in the haze for a whole week not fully realizing what had happened to me and the full extent of what I had accomplished. I set a goal last year before my city prelim and I said after all this is over I will prove to Louisiana that I am a force to be reckoned with. I wanted for people to see me as a quality entertainer. The ironic thing was my goal was unrealistic, I did not have the power to make everyone see my talent. What I ended up doing was proving it to myself that I was good enough. Something I took from this year is to stop the saying “Prove them all wrong” because the opinions of others are meaningless compared to the view of yourself. So I stared telling myself “Prove myself right”. I never needed anyone to see that I was great, I just needed to see the greatness in myself.

After I won I hit the ground running with preparations for Miss Gay America. I may not have been fully prepared for the opportunity but my team and I worked tirelessly to make sure I made Louisiana proud. I cannot tell yall if I did or not but I was so filled with honor to be on that stage in the presence of former and current Miss Gay America’s it was a feeling to this day that lights me up. I brought the light back home and shined through every performance I was given. I made sure I was visible to the community and hoped they realized how much I respected the honor I had received. Then once my prelim season grew near I was flooded with an overwhelming sense of doubt. I knew the worries everyone had of me that was I too young to handle this responsibility. Finally a voice in my head told me “You weren’t too young to win so you won’t be too young to reign.”

Throughout the prelim season I saw many different female impersonators with their own sets of goals and dreams. To be a part of all their journeys is emotionally overwhelming. You see it in their eyes when they look at you the want to be where you are. The pageant season was far from a breeze but, an amazing challenge that I took on and saw to the end. The lack of true understanding of the job of a MGLA does during the year is very evident. From the moment you arrive at registration until the end of the last contestant critique you are everywhere. We always hear the saying “there is no handbook for this” but, there is though it does not prepare you for everything. It is a labor of love for sure but after every prelim when I laid down for bed I could still feel the light and its warm embrace. I would like to thank all the contestants from this year qualifying and non-qualifying you made this year an extraordinary experience for me. I wish you all the best may it be in the competition this week or in your preparations for next year.

I want to let you all know how wonderful Miss Gay Louisiana America is and I cannot do that without the recognition of Mr. David Green and Josh Richard. David your love and passion for promoting is beautiful, you have become so much more than a promoter to me but a lifelong friend. So many people go into this for money or recognition, I know for you that is the farthest thing from your mind. Many have paved the way for you but you have taken the road and continued to trail blaze the legacy of MGLA. I know so much of your hard work goes unseen but being able to be a part of this with you has been wonderful. Thank you for trusting in my abilities and allowing me to be the administrator I did not even know I had inside. Josh our friendship has grown a lot this year as well, thank you for always taking care of me and housing my trips to Baton Rouge. The work you do for MGLA is amazing and you do it with such professionalism. Both of you have such amazing spirits and your love for the Miss Gay America system is clear in your actions. I love you both dearly thank you for believing in me.

So this goes out to my future sister and successor, respect yourself and what you have been given. Miss Gay Louisiana America is much more than a title or a ticket to Miss Gay America, it’s a legacy. What you do with is opportunity is up to you it will be what you make it. Realize you have won but you are far from a finished product so grow and learn as much as possible. If you ever feel over whelmed you have a group of sisters that have been there to see you through. You are a human with the ability to make mistakes never they anyone take that gift away from you because from the mistakes you will become so much stronger than anyone can imagine. Lastly so appreciation for all that aid in your year as MGLA because you were never promised help. Love the individuals that stick out a helping hand and remember to return the favor when the time comes. I am truly thankful for everything and I just hope this week I get to show that to you all. I will say I was far from perfect but I was my best.

Santana Pilar Andrews Miss Gay Louisiana America 2014